As I envision the person I’ll become in 5, 10, 25, or even 45 years, I’m certain everything about me will change, including my gender – how I feel about it, how I look, how others see me. Being trans is a lifelong condition, just another part of being human. Continue reading Post Transition
I once asked myself, “when will my transition be complete?” After which I questioned the underlying assumption, wondering “how can my transition ever be complete?” As a non-binary person this seemed impossible.
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It’s been a year since I put up pictures of my chest for the world to see. And it’s hard to believe that it’s been only 2 years since there was anything else there. Hypertrophic Scar Treatment I get a lot of questions about the scars. While most people’s scars turn a pinkish-white after 2 years, mine still look as if I’m fresh out of … Continue reading Top Surgery: 2 Years Post-op
On January 7 2012 I started Testosterone, and January 5 2013 was my last shot. The reason I stopped T this time was because of my hysterectomy. More estrogen and less testosterone encourages faster healing, so my surgeon recommended suspending T for a few weeks if I felt comfortable doing so. In my previous grapples with testosterone, I was always looking for an excuse to … Continue reading Testosterone: 1 year
This letter was written by my significant other as a contribution to a book. It seems fitting to publish this Feb 14th. Enjoy. Yesterday as I was waking up it hit me: your hysterectomy is in less than 2 weeks. I couldn’t help but get nervous. Not that I don’t want you to do it; I do, and I know it is the right timing … Continue reading Significant Love
Though the general public perceives “transitioning” as some magical sex change that instantly transforms you from man to woman, or woman to man, we all know it doesn’t really work that way. This is especially true when your gender falls out of the binary, but more often than not these days people are not even taking the “traditional” routes to transition so by now it … Continue reading Ready
Cramps In Spanish – at least the Mexican Spanish that I speak – there are three words to describe three distinct types of cramps. “Dolor de caballo” – or literally, horse’s pain – is the kind of sharp cramp you get when exercising. You feel it in your lower diaphragm, or sometimes quite oddly in your shoulder blades. While it makes breathing slightly painful, it … Continue reading Hysterectomy: One Week Post-Op
Hormones are gradual. That I would actually take hormones was a surprise in itself, since for the longest time I was absolutely convinced that I would never ever do that. But also, internalizing the fact that you don’t take a shot of testosterone and wake up with a full grown beard and hunky chest hair helped me put aside my irrational fears and focus on … Continue reading 5 Things I Wish I Knew Last Year
Given that in the last post I quickly glossed over the fact that I have a major surgery scheduled in less than a week, I wanted to address a few details surrounding my decision and the whole process of having a hysterectomy. What procedure am I getting? A total laparoscopic hysterectomy, non-robotic to avoid an extra scar. All of my organs except my ovaries will … Continue reading My Hysto
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When I told my dad I wanted surgery, it went something like this. We were at the Zócalo – Mexico City’s downtown district – shopping for my very first suit. He started talking about how the staff didn’t know whether I was a boy or a girl, how they were very confused by the whole situation. “You know I don’t care. I’m fine with that, … Continue reading Today’s Truth
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