Monday marks two weeks since top surgery. After showering yesterday I changed the medical tape on the incisions, and managed to snap some pictures of the real deal. Additionally as of today I don’t have to wear the ace bandage wrap 24/7, just when I’m active, which means I’ll need to get used to wearing, for the first time in over 10 years, absolutely nothing … Continue reading Two Week Notice
For those of you have seen the TV show 30 Days, you’ve witnessed how much can happen in a month. It’s been exactly 30 days since I signed up for this blog; indeed a lot has happened. There are 17 published posts, about 13 drafts, most of them fully cooked, and at least 10 more potential leads, not to mention breaking news and current developments. … Continue reading 30 Days of Neutrois
Specifically, My Significant Other There is someone very special in my life, and I feel truly (and this is one of the rare times I’ll say this word) blessed. I feel blessed because I feel more than just lucky and more than just happy. I’ve found someone who helped me find my happiness, helped me build it, helped me nurture it, and who has helped … Continue reading Significant Others
While I’ve never participated in online dating (or offline dating, for that matter), the socio-psychologist in me is always up for curious poking. Needless to say I joined a few dating sites (match.com, eharmony.com, bigchurch.com… [what? I was really curious; people really need bible study partners apparently]), looked around for a whopping 30 minutes, and having no real need for it (practically married now), never … Continue reading Online Dating
I flew back home yesterday. On the way to Chicago a week ago, I had considered asking for a wheelchair at the airport, for the way back. Yeah, that’s how bad I thought I’d be. It was a smooth ride back. Needless to say, I feel pretty good, except tired. I’m staying home the rest of the week, working remotely instead of going into the … Continue reading Finally Home, In Recovery
Just a short update, to make it an even seven. Slept a very long overdue long nap today, enjoying my last day before going home (tomorrow) and starting work again (on Tuesday, from home). I’m also watching the Oscars, which I haven’t done since I left for college like six years ago… no seven years (gasp!) Here’s today picture, and some commentary. I took a … Continue reading Lazy Sunday
Talking is the best therapy, and talking is something I practice and enjoy quite a lot. My significant other and I have been talking about my recent feelings, so far drawing a few key conclusions. I’ve dubbed this emotional state post-surgical depression or post-operative depression. At first it seemed it could be similar to post-partum depression, but after some initial research it seems depression and … Continue reading Post-Surgical Depression
It’s been a rough 24 hours since the last post. In honor of the fourth day, here are the four major highlights. One: Panic Attack Yesterday I had a panic attack. I’ve had them before, but this has been by far the worst one, as it was the first where it was completely out of my control. My wonderful and brave significant other was rewrapping … Continue reading 24×4
Nightly Delirium Last night I read an interesting blog post over at Jamie/James’ blog, which has stirred up much discussion in my head. One part particularly stood out: The truth is, it’s almost always easier to feel angry than to feel even momentarily powerless. It is easier to say, “I hate my high school,” than to say, “I couldn’t make the people there respect me.” … Continue reading And on the Third Day….
Today I feel much better. It’s probably due to the fact that all I’ve done is sleep and eat, but a big factor is also that I finally took off my bandages. I was disappointed that the doctor didn’t take them off yesterday, since the tightness was already too much to bear, but somewhat a little relieved as I wasn’t ready to see what was … Continue reading Second Day Update
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