Preface I wrote this letter almost 6 months ago, but it gathered dust in my drafts folder. Yesterday I sent my dad an unpublished story on my blog, and inadvertently this led him to read my whole blog. Which is fine, except for the fact that he had no idea I was on testosterone. This little detail escaped me at the time, and I clearly … Continue reading A Letter to My Family
Curiosity usually gets the best of me, so I’d like to run an experiment. Which I am totally stealing from Eli. (But stealing without attribution brings bad blog juju, plus Eli’s blog is pretty awesome too!) Just as a matter of record, I was wondering, what do I look like to a stranger So dear readers, followers, fans, companions and friends, even if you have … Continue reading The (Other) Experiment
First Exactly three years, I started my first real job. Right at the very same time I started binding. The problem was that this job was in New York, and I lived in Philadelphia, which is a two hour commute on the bus. Each way. Binding is a real pain when you’re sitting on the bus for 2 hours, but I would do it because … Continue reading Transitioning At Work
My company moved offices about a month ago. At the old office, we had an open space, which was getting very crowded. Then we got acquired by a huge corporation, and our lease ran out. Off to cozy up to the corporate headquarters, where I get my very own cube and officially join the ranks of the corporate drones. At the old office, I was … Continue reading The Bathroom Issue
An ineffable string of random letters and/or sounds that somehow represents you. YOU. Who you are. Your essence. The same word is used to refer to who you used to be; to call your attention to the present; to stand in for who you will become. This name is yours. Your name is yours. You are your name. Even when so many others share the … Continue reading Nameless
It’s been exactly 3 months since I started T. Since I wanted to start on a low dose, I opted for cream-based testosterone. It looks like regular hand cream, I dab a good spoonful on every morning on my thighs, and carefully wash my hands afterwards, making sure I don’t rub it on my girlfriend. It’s not an accurate equal dose every day, and I … Continue reading Testosterone: 3 Months
The Primer Not quite 3 months ago, I started Testosterone, and my reasons, while took forever to congeal, were clear: I’d much rather be perceived as not-female than as female. Which leads me to the only other option: being perceived as male. The key word is perceived, and that takes two. Taking hormones is a physical means of making my body more androgynous. But physical … Continue reading A Pronouncement on Pronouns
The other day a former co-worker of mine found me and this blog. “You’re on the first row of images when I google ‘legalize trans’” she excitedly skyped. Other than a few choice people who know my real name, I try very hard to keep this blog semi-anonymous. In real life, I’m not out out. Meaning once in a while I’ll post an LGBTQ-related news … Continue reading On Anonymity
Today I am one-year post op from my top surgery. There have been many changes over the course of the year, both physically, emotionally, and mentally. Overall I am extremely happy. Timeline: Posts Here’s a list of all the posts I wrote related to my top surgery: Pre-Surgery 02/11/2011 Top Surgery 02/15/2011 Top Surgery, Part 2 02/19/2011 Last Minute Concerns Seven-Day Journal 02/21/2011 Top Surgery … Continue reading Top Surgery: 1 Year Post-Op
As I mumbled to the good doctor over at Dimensions “and one more thing I want that prescription please” she chuckled. She probably wasn’t laughing at me… actually maybe she was, since she said “Oh, we’re there already?” After the quizzical look I gave her she clarified, “I’m just surprised it took you this long.” Yeah, it’s been a long time coming, but we all … Continue reading T&T
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